I was in a state of contentment that I actually gave myself permission to enjoy my life. I did realize that for the past years of my life I have helped make lives of people around me better and that I needed to start living my own life on my own terms with God's grace. Within a few months into giving myself permission to enjoy life I was able to meet someone special. Someone who made me feel special. Someone who reminds me that sometimes it could be just about me.
Am I happy now? In certain aspects of my life it is a definite YES. But in some areas is a MAYBE.
Maybe this year instead of praying for peace of mind I could pray for understanding and patience. Understanding that other people see things differently and patience that it will take time for people to understand. I know deep inside that I am happy. I pray to God that people see how happy I am. Finally, to be 28 and happy. That was a long wait.
Btw: I get to go on a weekend trip down south for my birthday. Can't wait for Showmar's, Bojangels, authentic pulled pork and bbq. No one has bought me tickets for a vacation. This feels sweet.
